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   \  i was gearing myself up for a really fun weekend but had two back to back shitty  \
   \  phone calls with my parents. i had a long ass argument with my mother about       \
   \  being trans instead of just calling to say happy birthday to my sister. but like  \
   \  always, it has to end up going there with her. i still think coming out was the   \
   \  better option since she wouldve been way more annoying if she found out by        \
   \  herself. it did feel like there was a bit of progress there, which im cautiously  \
   \  optimistic about. the second call was a lot more pleasant in tone but honestly    \
   \  worse... my father is planning on visiting next week and i dont know what to do.  \
   \  last time he was here it was a pain to hide things from him but a year later its  \
   \  gotten a lot harder. i dont know if i should be in panic mode trying to figure    \
   \  out a way to hide everything or if i should just come clean at this point. my     \
   \  genuine fear is that he gets a heart attack and dies. i am not being hyperbolic   \
   \  is the problem. maybe we both pretend to not see and his body will do everything  \
   \  in its power to help him cope... i hope this ends well                            \
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   \ i hope you like my mini rants irl, cuz this is just more of that but more coherent \
   \ ? maybe, i honestly just want smthn doesnt have the immediate feedback of social   \
   \ media. like i love mstdn but i also dont want 15-20 people reading my thoughts and \
   \ commenting on them in less than a minute. i think its cooler if they have a bit to \
   \ think about what i post on here and maybe bring it up in a convo. anyways, this is \
   \ getting longer that i originally intended, so gn!! <3 ^-^                          \
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